i drive over
honk the horn
twice
get out
knock on the door
try it
it's locked
this was once
my parent's house
the house
i grew up in
she comes to the door
and i press my nose
against the glass
blowing steam through
my nostrils
i don't know why
it's so hard
going there
anymore
driving up
i feel like
i'm putting on
armor
but it's fine
just the past
we talk for hours
i fix something
on her computer
that i built
for her
and drive off
after hearing all
about the family
i never keep in touch
with
and never did
she looked happy
i would go back
to the schoolyard
to defend her
again
but
that
isn't needed
anymore